Musings on an Autumn Day.

There's a lot going on in my heart. A depth that I don't fully understand. The way He loves me astounds me and leaves me with this....joyful satisfaction. How could it be that the King could know everything about me and still love?! Oh, but He does.

Right outside my window, He's been painting this beautiful view for a few weeks now. The season is changing and the color of the leaves is proving it. He is so constant. Not just for the seasons of the Earth, but for the seasons of my life. Could it be that He is painting His masterpiece through my life more beautifully than the leaves I see on display outside? Oh, but He is.

The best part is, it wasn't ever my idea. I'd never be so clever to come up with something so scandalous and beautiful. Oh, but He did.

I've been resting today. I might've even skipped my Greek class. And a few bees have been bouncing off my window all morning trying to get in. They, of course, have not be successful...but they are persistent.

I can see His personality bring and clear...
through the color of the leaves.
the bright blue sky.
and even the bees.

Just a snapshot of my heart on this bright & beautiful Autumn day.

Peculiarities.

Such a peculiar world we live in these days.
How quickly I forget Your grace...
when I watch the giants of the faith
I've looked up to since I was a little girl
start to spiral down a staircase of declining health.
My knee-jerk reaction is to fear...
to run and hide my eyes,
simply because I forget that You are here.

Such a quirky place this world can be,
when in a day,
the joy in my heart turns to melancholy.
When yet again, I face my sin...
and feel the need to hide.
Simply because I forget that You, my God, are on my side.

In the midst of the peculiar and the quirks
the fear and the pain
the sadness in my heart
that feels like pouring rain,

strong and steady You stand.
Never letting go of my hand.
Loving me fully.
Belting over me in song.
Once again, You will rise, and melt away the fog.

But, right here and now, I will stay
fully present in the mist...
trusting that even though I don't feel You...
Your embrace is stronger yet.