There are times when I long for so many things. The desires churn within me. Especially lately.
I long for a friend of mine to be here at LU with me. Where I want to believe she belongs, but the Lord Jesus has her on an adventure bigger than she could imagine. And it's beautiful to behold. I just wish I was beholding it from closer than 8 hours away.
Another desire that is churning is for that of a spouse. A companion. It's crazy, because I've never been in this boat before. Not like this, at least. The Lord Jesus reminds me that He wants me to feel the same way about Him that I do about the person I like, more so. He makes a great point. May I obey wholeheartedly.
I keep thinking about home. Danville. Grandma. Precious home. Sometimes I wish I could clone myself. Especially, now that there's this balancing act between wanting to see her and be home, and trying to be an adult. I'm looking for a job, and I know that when I get one here, I won't be coming home much. Even on break. Which is difficult to think. Because I love her. And I will forever. Never do I want her to believe otherwise.
All of these things slam me. I'm learning so much. And Jesus is walking with me. His proven to me over and over again that He is able to satisfy every single longing or desire I have.
...for my friend.
...for my husband.
...for my Grandma.
...for my home.
He is my Friend, my Husband, and my Home...and certainly, if He can fill the spot of my parents, He can fill the spot of my Grandma.
So, the longings well up.
And He is faithful.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Imagination.
I forget so quickly.
And I'm grateful that Jesus pursues me every moment of my forgetfulness.
There are moments when I'm completely consumed with who He is, which is exactly where I want to be. And where He wants to me. But the problem is,
These are moments.
Most of the time, I walk in my forgetfulness. Lack of desire for Him. (Or so it seems, because really, every desire for something else is really a misplaced desire for Him, because only He can fulfill it.)
Yet He pursues.
Do you know how much Jesus loves us? Stop for two minutes out of your busy day. Stop your mind from running to the gajillion things you have to do within the next hour. Stop. Just stop.
And think.
Know:
The Lord of all Creation loves you. He loves me.
Rest in His love.
That's it. Just rest.
Selah.
Even when we forget,
He still pursues.
He is love.
He understands.
We are His, He is ours. Forever and ever.
"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!" 1 John 3:1
And I'm grateful that Jesus pursues me every moment of my forgetfulness.
There are moments when I'm completely consumed with who He is, which is exactly where I want to be. And where He wants to me. But the problem is,
These are moments.
Most of the time, I walk in my forgetfulness. Lack of desire for Him. (Or so it seems, because really, every desire for something else is really a misplaced desire for Him, because only He can fulfill it.)
Yet He pursues.
Do you know how much Jesus loves us? Stop for two minutes out of your busy day. Stop your mind from running to the gajillion things you have to do within the next hour. Stop. Just stop.
And think.
Know:
The Lord of all Creation loves you. He loves me.
Rest in His love.
That's it. Just rest.
Selah.
Even when we forget,
He still pursues.
He is love.
He understands.
We are His, He is ours. Forever and ever.
"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!" 1 John 3:1
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